This is a late night - can't sleep - get it out of my head type blog. I'm leaving for CA to see my sis and
niece on the 10
th. I say "I" because it is I and I alone that will be going. I'm leaving the kids here with Charles for Fri-Thursday. Every time I think about leaving the kids for that long I cry and want to throw up. It is a horrible feeling. I'm praying that I can just get
thru this so that I can enjoy the precious time with Casie and Z:(, but I can't imagine being
ok w/o my kids for an entire week. I don't get to see them (C and Z) much, and I want to enjoy the time I have with them. Also I am
completely terrified about flying and the
changeover that I have in
Dallas, so on top of leaving for that long I am
freaking out about flying. I feel like I need to tell Charles where all the important stuff is - I'm talking seriously afraid!
I've had lots of these nights - where I can't sleep b/c of this. Tonight I was just laying there wondering if any of you have done anything like this? If you have (and it went well) please, please leave me a comment. If you think it is horrible that I would leave my kids for 6 days - obviously keep it to yourself! So there! Pray for me to get through this. Some of you may think that I am fully being ridiculous. But not many people even read this - and those who do probably wouldn't expect any less. In fact, I'm pretty certain that if my sister were about to leave Z for a week, she too would be unable to sleep (which is why I hope she understands.)
I thought I would feel better for blogging. Maybe I will soon. I have company coming tomorrow that I am really looking forward to. I should be thinking about that, right?
While you are up reading (some of you as late as I am typing) go over to my
photog blog and leave me some love in the comment section of my latest posts.
Good night (I hope).